Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Memorial


Dear Family and Friends,

Unfortunately, this is not Tyler writing, but it is me, Eva- Tyler’s wife. I am addressing you all on his behalf.

After a five-and-a-half-year long and extraordinary battle against cancer- a battle against all odds and a fight in pursuit of life- Tyler passed away in the morning of Sunday, January the 8th 2012. He went peacefully, in his home, in his own bed, next to me- the way he had wished it to be.

Not so long ago, in the confides of one of our dearly cherished “Quality Hubbily (Tyler)-Wutzily (that’s me) Cuddle Times” he told me ‘how did I get so incredibly lucky to have such loving and wonderful parents, such amazing and loyal friends, and to be married to my soul mate and the love of my life, and how did I get so incredibly unlucky with this disease?’

He treasured every single one of you, and you truly have been wonderful throughout his life and especially throughout the past years. He had a unique ability to touch people in a very special way, the way only Tyler could. It was heartrending to experience how nurses and doctors who at one time or another had taken care of Tyler would rush to his bedside when they learned he was back at the hospital. They would check on him during or after their shifts, usually breaking into tears. Again, there was something magical about him- his kindness, his gratefulness, his spirit, his love for life, and his unending optimism (to just name a few) that inspired and touched the way only Tyler could. You probably all know what I am talking about.

No words could ever describe how incredibly fortunate I feel to have been part of his life and that he had a special place in his heart for me. His loss leaves behind a gaping void- a hurting reminder of his passing. Life for me, and the rest of us, will never be the same. Again, and as so often in the past, I turn to Tyler for help and remember what he had told me in the ICU. We were filling out the Advanced Directives, which was incredibly difficult to do, and he took my hand, looked me in the eyes and said that everything would be okay… I would be okay. When the time came for him to go, the very second, he would take place on my shoulder, he would be with me- wherever I would go, for the rest of my life. Though nothing could ever replace him and he most certainly went too soon, it gives me a little solace to know that he is with us and always will be.

To that end, we will be holding an ‘Open House’ in honor and loving memory of Tyler to come together as friends and family to share stories, memories, and support.

Date: Saturday, January 21, 2012
Where: Tyler’s parents’ house. 1901 West 35th Street, San Pedro, CA 90732
Time: 4 pm

Other 1: As Tyler and I enjoyed potluck style parties (we kept up the tradition from our wedding until this past New Year’s Eve celebration) we encourage you to bring something to share (not required though).

Other 2: Yvonne, Dennis, and I will leave for Hawaii tomorrow and won’t be back until Tuesday.

Other 3: If you are so moved please learn more about pancreatic cancer at pancan.org, donate blood and platelets at your local blood bank, hug your loved ones, and pray to experience a life as rich and full as Tyler’s.



Remembering Tyler, the love of my life, a wonderful son, a good friend to many


Tyler, early in December 2012- what a spirit he had...



Tyler on Christmas Day 2012 decorated with a bow- what a good sport he was...

You will be missed so much...









Official Obituary by Dennis, Dad

Tyler Mark Noesen
4/23/81 - 1/8/12

Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die today.

Tyler Noesen died of pancreatic cancer after a 5 1/2 year battle. He died peacefully at home with his loving wife the morning of Sunday, January 8, 2012.

Tyler was raised in San Pedro and schooled in Long Beach. He attended South Shores Elementary, Longfellow Elementary, Hughes Middle School, and Poly High School. As a child he played baseball and basketball at Bogdonavich Park, roller hockey and indoor soccer at the Lakewood YMCA, and soccer with San Pedro AYSO and Long Beach United Soccer Club. He played the saxophone in the Poly band.

He surfed, scuba dived, water and snow skied. He loved Catalina. He was an Eagle Scout. Tyler ran cross country and track and was the 1998 Moore League individual cross country champion, but more important to him was that he contributed to three state high school championships. He was an International Ambassador at Poly.

UC Berkeley was his college, graduating in 2003 as a mechanical and materials science engineer. He ran in college, living in the “track house,” which was “like a fraternity, only dirtier.” Tyler spent one summer on a fishing boat in Alaska. He was employed by Raytheon Corporation for 10 years as an engineer in the DPA (Destructive Physical Analysis) department. Tyler was interested in national and international politics and his recent reading list and dream was to be a Foreign Service Officer.

Tyler met Eva, the love of his life, at Cal in 2002 (she was from Switzerland). They were kindred spirits: traveling, competing, and living life as an adventure. They married in 2006. Despite his profound disease, Tyler’s last years were full of fun, laughter, friends, travel and joy. He is survived by his wife Eva, his parents Dennis and Yvonne, and many uncles, aunts and cousins. Read more about Tyler at tnoesen.blogspot.com.

If you are so moved, please learn more about pancreatic cancer at pancan.org, donate blood or platelets at your local blood bank, hug your loved ones, and pray to experience a life as rich and full as Tyler’s.

Carpe Vitam and Live Strong

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

LA Cancer Challenge 2010



The LA Cancer Challenge 2010 was a huge success. Thank you so much to all the wonderful people who made it happen. Thanks to the front runners who lead Team Tyler to a 4th Straight 5K Team Championship. Thanks to everyone else who came out who made Team Tyler the force that it was. Seriously, everywhere you looked, you would see someone in a Team Tyler shirt. Thanks to everyone who supported us from afar. Your positive energy helped more than you will know. Thanks to everyone who gave money to fight pancreatic cancer. Your generosity was really touching. Finally, thanks to everyone who walked in the back with me. It sure did feel like a long 3.1 miles but I was stoked I made it and I owe so much of it to all of you keeping me company and chatting me up and really carrying me through it. A lot has happened since the last race - foot drop, AFOs, strength improvement, extensive neuropathy, walker, wheelchair, walker, gradual improvement, a couple minor surgeries, more strength, and finally a cane- and I really didn’t know if it was going to happen. You guys got me through. Well done.

As far as the team, we took home the 5K Team Title again and we had an amazing “official” 71 Team Tyler members and many more people actually on the course and supporting from home.

We raised over $8,000!! That is awesome and will certainly help pushing research forward. Particularly impressive considering the current economic climate.

And while those were no small feats, I think the highlight of the day for me was seeing so many old and new friends and getting to talk a bit with so many of you. It was a really fun day and I really treasure every fun day I get. I wish I could have spent the whole morning with each of you but there just are not enough hours in the day. Thank you for being incredible people.

One really sweet woman introduced herself after the race and said she had joined Team Tyler because she had come across my story on the Pancan website. She didn’t know any of us but it looked like she was just another one of the gang. Pretty cool.

Shannon came through fabulously with some awesome jerseys and Big Dennis and my dad made adorable kiddie Team Tyler shirts and some classics. Actually, I am pretty sure our edge was the few small children and dog that were a part of the team - essential ingredients for any feel good story. I think it is safe to say that we were the most stylish team out there.

I do have to apologize, though. I was a big idiot at the end of the race. After walking together for over an hour and a half, everyone was kind enough to let me go a step ahead as I crossed the line, after which, if I was a considerate individual, I would have turned around and thanked everyone for getting me through it. As it happened, I just kept walking, got my medal, posed for a quick pic, and then went straight back to my chair by the tree. Sorry about that. I was just stupid and tired and basically dreaming of my chair. Just know that I really did appreciate everyone one out there.

People who are better at sharing pictures than me have been sending me some wonderful shots and I have put them up in a mobile me gallery that you can directly add your photos to. Please upload your shots and feel free to download what ever pics you want to. I will try to keep a bit of order but I’m not always the most reliable. I am looking forward to your pics. Becky and Mike Sanders got us started out very nicely. Here is the link

http://gallery.me.com/tnoesen/100053

If pics are already in your email, you can just forward the email to
tnoesen-3zhq@post.me.com
and they will get added automatically.

One last little treat. Natan put together a video of the “race” which a lot of you are in. Well done Natan. Disclaimer: just know that I walk very slowly. It is just my speed right now. It was 7 minutes faster than last year and only 78 minutes off my PR. The video is up on his wall on facebook.


Again, great job everyone. Take Care and Live Strong.
Tyler






Monday, October 18, 2010

Well, its that time of the year again. LA Cancer Challenge and Pancreatic Cancer Awareness month are right around the corner. Sorry for the late heads up this year, as usual I have neglected the blog mostly due to me feeling pretty well and being really busy.

It is less than 2 weeks until the LA Cancer Challenge 5K/10K run on October 31st at the Veteran's grounds next to UCLA. The 10K starts at 7:30am and the 5K starts at 9:30am.

If you are free, please come out and join Team Tyler and support pancreatic cancer research.

We have taken the 5K Team Title the last 3 years and are looking for another. All ringers are welcome and any donations will be going to a very good cause (at least in my opinion, though I may be a little biased). Past donations have led to UCLA being designated as a comprehensive pancreatic cancer center and also funded a study performed by my endocrinologist which was published earlier this year. Pat yourselves on the back as your donations are helping us to make steps in the right direction.

Healthwise, I have been doing pretty well. I had a biopsy done in July where they could not find any malignant cells on the chunks they took. That was very encouraging though it by no means puts me in the clear. Less encouraging has been that my CA19-9 marker has slowly been going up. It is hard to say what all this means. I will probably be going for a scan soon which may clarify things a little more. I hope not, but I realize at some point I will probably have to go back onto chemo. Luckily, this long break has allowed my body to recover a lot. Some things have been coming back, like the nerves in my legs, while other things will probably never come back, like my kidneys. That is just how it is. I generally feel well and my energy is pretty good these days. Dialysis has been tolerable and the center has actually been pretty good experience this time, though I have found it hard to accomplish anything meaningful on Tuesdays, Thursdays, or Saturdays. I just cannot think like I would like to during treatment and often feel very wasted after treatment. To try to address this, and get back 3 days of my week, I have been transitioning to Peritoneal Dialysis over the last few weeks. Instead of your blood leaving you body, going through the artificial kidney and returning like Hemo-dialysis, Peritoneal dialysis is performed by putting fluid into your peritoneal lining (the sac that holds your guts), letting it sit there for a while, drain it, and repeat. The peritoneum has enough little blood vessels that can act as a membrane similar to a kidney and a little sugar water draws the fluid and toxins out of you and makes it all happen. After some training and trial runs, I switched last Wednesday. So far so good though there are always a few kinks to work out and it takes a little getting used to to have an extra 2 liters in your belly all the time. What sold me was the mindset that the two modalities operate under. With hemo, you are told to be in your chair at your time every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday and you spend a lot of you time there. With peritoneal, the nurse (a great guy named Joe) asked me what I would like to do during my day and week and then he tried to come up wit a schedule that would work around that. What a concept! We will run some tests in a couple weeks to see if this will work for the long run. Sometimes, people's membrane transports too fast or too slow and it just is not possible. Here's to hoping my membrane is goldilocks.

Aside from transitioning to PD and also working, I managed to get out of town for a week and a half to Hawaii. It was the first trip I have taken just to take a trip in a long time. Sadly, Eva had school and could not join me. As amazing and gorgeous as Maui and the Big Island were, the best parts of the trip were spending time with some great friends, Bubba, Tom, and Elizabeth. Bubbs and E, thanks for putting Tom and me up and for being the amazing people you are. It was a lot of fun. Here are some highlights.

Well, I hope to see all you at the race on the 31st and I hope that everyone has been doing well. It is still infrequent, but I do update facebook a little more often than the blog and I would love to be friends.

Take Care and Live Strong,
Tyler

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

DC and Virginia, Part 2

Thursday morning, my folks, John B., and I drove down to Richmond. On the way we had lunch right on the rivers edge in a tiny little town off the highway. I thought it would be a good way to get into the feel of the south by eating outside in about 95 degree heat with about 85% humidity. It has been slowly getting better, but ever since my thyroid was a little off in January, I have almost always been on the cold side, but this was hot even for me. After about 20 minutes, I started grabbing ice cubes from my drink and melting them on my forehead. The heat certainly slowed our pace down quite a bit. The only other time I had been in the south was when I went to the Texas relays in high school and I was really excited to get another taste of that part of the country. From everything I have seen and heard, it has a very unique character, and while some might focus on the negatives, I was hoping to experience some of that famous hospitality, history, and pace of life that, in my opinion, can add a lot to your quality of life. I was a little bummed that our waitress did not have much of an accent but, otherwise, lunch did not disappoint.

That evening, we got settled into our hotel and then Alex’s parents hosted Hor d’ourves in their suite. Lots of out of town guests had come in and were staying at the hotel and many came by to mingle a little that evening. It was wonderful to see Amy and Alex and they looked just like the happy young couple that they are. Both of their parents were really nice and made John and I feel right at home. I found a nice couch to park myself on and ended up talking to just about the sweetest little old lady you could imagine. She was a friend from Amy’s church. When she sat down, someone handed her a drink and, with the heat still in full effect, she took a gulp and then made this expression that was to die for. She was expecting lemonade and got white wine. She laughed and resigned herself to the wine until she saw John open up a nice frosty beer. I could see that she was eyeing it, and then she asked if she could have a beer and I traded John her wine for his beer. I had never seen such a cute little old woman look so longingly at a Heineken. My father used to keep beer in my Grandmother’s fridge and one time she accidentally grabbed one when she was trying to give Harry a Coke. He took a sip and made a sour face and said, I don’t think this is Coke. My Grandma said sure it is and took a sip. Well, down the drain that beer went. Now here on my left was someone who was just as adorable as my Grandmother, sipping away on a beer just like the trackhouse guy on my right. Awesome. Between her and a few other guests I got my accent fix for the night. I don’t know what it is, but I could listen to that southern drawl for hours.

On Friday, a bunch of the guests went for a run in the morning and I went out with my folks to see a little history. Hollywood cemetery is right there and we took a little drive through. A few of the notable people resting there were James Monroe, John Tyler, and Jefferson Davis. They also had a confederate section which really brought home the power of the civil war. No doubt that human subjugation is evil and wrong, but like any conflict, even the “villains” are human beings. It seems to me, a lot of the impetus for war was the reaction by southerners against being told what to do by outsiders, the north. Again, slavery needed to end, but I also understand that reaction. I don’t like to be told what to do. Maybe we should take that into consideration when find ourselves on the other side of the world trying to do good. Alright, enough ranting for now.

Later, my folks and I went over to the Fine Art Museum, which had a pretty impressive collection of faberge eggs and then back to the hotel for a nap before the wedding.

It was an evening wedding at the Botanical Gardens there in Richmond and, thankfully, it had cooled off a good 10-15 degrees and the humidity was down a bit, too. It was a lovely ceremony with the sun going down behind the couple making them glow a little like angels. Kenji gave an awesome poetry reading. More animated than anything I had ever seen before. Alex and Amy exchanged very nice vows and I was really impressed that each delivered some pretty extensive vows flawlessly under a decent amount of pressure. I think I would have cracked. I could barely get out the sentences that the pastor had said just a moment before. The whole multi-day wedding celebration was so well thought out and was a credit to the time and energy Alex and Amy put into planning these few days. I am sure it will be a reflection of the time, energy, and dedication that they will put towards their marriage. Even the local honey in the cloth gift bags (made by Amy) was given in 3 oz. jars to insure that guests traveling by plane would not have to forfeit their honey at the security check-point. As an engineer who is usually the most detail-oriented person in the room, I was not even in their league. Well done, Alex and Amy, well done. After the ceremony, the reception was right there at the gardens and everyone seemed to have a really good time. I heard a lounge version of “Baby Got Back” for the first time during dinner and was again impressed by the couple’s dancing skills for the first dance. In the twilight after the sun had gone down, the fireflies came out and it was really pretty magical. I had not seen fireflies since I was a kid visiting my Aunt Zel in Chicago and they just put a smile on my face. All in all, an amazing evening.

On Saturday, I dialyzed in the morning (and waited an hour and a half to get onto the machine for a four hour treatment) and then cruised over to a pool party at Amy’s folks house. I would have liked to have had more time hanging out but it was still really nice and I met some wonderful people from both Amy and Alex’s various groups of friends. That night we headed back up to DC and crashed near the airport for our early flight the next day.

I spent the next week recovering from the trip, dialyzing, and trying to get my hours in for work. Tiana and Mike V. were in town and I hung out with them a different times during the week. Thursday was game night at Tiana’s and Ross and Ryan G. joined Mike, Tiana, and I for some fierce board game action. Mike V. turned out to be the railroad baron we all knew he was and took home victory at Ticket to Europe. On Saturday, Tom A. and I headed down to San Diego to see the Coffees and extended family. It was a mellow and nice 4th of July and really good to see Chris, Katie, and little Vincinzo. He turned 1 year old yesterday on the fifth which also marked 4 years since diagnosis for me. It was really good to be around Cinzo and I was so thankful that Chris, Katie, and the rest of the family really made Tom and I feel as part of the family. Seeing, holding, and interacting with a 1 year old did more for my soul than I think any support group ever could have. He was so full of life and so amazing I could not have imagined a better way to spend the day. Late in the night of the fourth, I had a couple shots of tequila, which was the first hard alcohol I had had in a long, long time. I took 1 for the 4th and 1 for the 5th. In the evening of the 5th, Cinzo had his birthday party in Old town San Diego. I think there were more than 30 people there for this little guy’s first birthday. What can I say, he is a popular guy.



It has been a busy few weeks. I am hoping to recover a bit for a while and just dialyze, work, and sleep. I hope all of you are doing well. I finally caved and joined facebook a few weeks ago and have found it to actually be a pretty cool thing. I still think real interaction is better but it has been nice to reconnect and is enjoyably addictive. It may also be a good way to follow my updates as I am not the most consistent blogger.

I hope everyone is pulling for Lance.

Take Care and Live Strong,
Tyler

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Advocacy Day 2010

DC and Virginia, Part 1

Last Sunday I left for the east coast for what ended up being one of my favorite trips in a long time. There were two main parts. The first half of the week, we (my folks and I) were in DC for Pancan’s Advocacy Day where people from all over the country come together to raise awareness and push for funding for pancreatic cancer research from the government. The second half of the week, John Burke joined us and we all went down to Richmond, Virginia to celebrate Alex and Amy’s wedding.

DC

I love DC. It is such an amazing city. Monuments, museums, agencies, and NGOs all just fascinate me. I get excited when I walk by random institutions like the Social Security Administration offices, or the State department, or the Humane Society. I just think it is cool to see the physical buildings where people work on programs that affect all of our lives. Amusement parks, meh. Huge government bureaucracies, awesome. We did not get to do too much sightseeing, but just getting to the places you need to go, you end up passing by some pretty amazing places. I know not everyone gets excited by these sorts of things but it just speaks to me.

Monday was spent training on how to lobby by Pancan. They go over the dos and don’ts for lobbying. Like do tell your representative that you are a constituent and that this issue matters to you. Don’t tell your representative that you think he is a jackass or that you won’t vote for him unless he supports the legislation you are pushing for. Pretty straightforward. JB Jaso signed up and we met up in the morning sessions. It was great to see JB and catch up over the next two days. He is really an amazing guy and I could not believe that it had been 10 years or so since we had last seen each other. We both have been through a lot and it was nice to talk to an old friend who really knows where you are coming from. He is also a great lobbyist, an awesome addition to the cause, and just a fun guy to be around. Sometimes, these gatherings are a little tough for me. Most of the time I generally live in denial of my disease and am just a happy, optimistic guy, but these events put the cancer front and center. Of the 450 or so people who came to DC this year, only a handful are survivors. The vast majority of people have lost someone to pancreatic cancer and some have lost more than one to this disease. Having JB around just made the few days easier to bear. I also got to spend some good time with Chris Calaprice, another young survivor. He is a cool guy and we can commiserate on issues that only a very few people will ever fully understand. Stuff like survivor guilt or dealing with the constant worry that ours lives are much more fragile than most. It was really nice talking to both guys and they really helped make the days positive and enjoyable.


Chris Calaprise and me in the Hart Senate office building. You can follow Chris' amazing crusade to spread awareness of pancreatic cancer at road2acure.org.

One of the obstacles to travel these days is dialysis but I had set up everything in advance and dialyzed in DC Monday afternoon. I kind of like dialyzing in new centers to change things up a bit. Of course there is always a little more stress with a new situation but things generally go fairly smoothly. JB joined me for the second half of my session and before we knew it, time was up and I got to go back to the hotel. The people working at that DC facility were very nice and pretty organized.

Tuesday was the big day. We had a pep talk by Jai Pousch (Randy Pousch’s wife, the guy who gave and wrote the last lecture) and her three young children. Pretty good send off.


Jai Pousch, my folks, JB, and me in front of the capital building. Her three kids are out of the frame but adorable and full of energy.

This year my group ended up meeting only with staffers, not the actual representatives but I think that your cause may end up doing better if it is communicated to the actually representative by a trusted staffer. The usual game plan was for me to tell my story, then another group member would tell their story, then someone would go over some statistics, and finally, someone else would present the ask (support HR 745 and SS 3320 and support an NCI budget of 5.79 billion for FY 2011, I think). My group had meetings with staffers from Mary Bono Mack’s office and Dana Rohrabacher’s office and they went pretty well. The team worked really well together and I was really stoked on how well everyone did. I think we made a pretty convincing case. Later, we heard that Mary Bono Mack co-sponsored HR 745 which was a big step in the right direction. After those meetings, I made my way to the meeting with my representative, Henry Waxman. Representative Waxman is sort of a personal hero to Eva and I and sometimes we think he is one of the few congresspeople that is actually supporting the average citizen. He is the one who recently gave a bit of a tongue lashing to CEO of BP, Tony Hayward. I love when John Stewart plays clips of him on The Daily Show or impersonates him with a mustache taped to a pencil. We had our meeting in his sub-committee room and I think/hope we communicated our cause to his staffer. He is very important because the bill would most likely originate in his committee but that fact may also be the reason that he will not co-sponsor it. He takes a principled stance and never co-sponsors bills that originate in his committee, which makes sense as it is a bit of a conflict of interest. I respect that stance and think that more people should take a real honest look at themselves and various conflicts of interest they may be involved with (MMS and big oil just as an example). I just hope that he brings the bill into the committee if we get over half the total congresspeople to co-sponsor it.

Later in the day, the Rep. Waxman’s staffer showed us his big committee room where the hearing on BP took place just a week or so before. It was really cool. Simple and governmental yet powerful. JB, my folks, and I got to sit in the congresspeople’s chairs. Awesome.


The staffer was sitting in the hot seat when she took this photo.

The rest of the day we took a group picture, had lunch, and then met with aides from our senators offices. It was a long and tiring day but the cause itself gave me a lot of energy. Who knows if we actually influenced anyone, but just being on capital hill, walking/wheeling the halls of power was energy giving for me. By the end of the day I was all fired up and just wanted to keep meeting with people day after day. I realized last year, and felt the same this year, how patriotic I am after this event. I am pretty patriotic most of the time anyways, but after seeing the access that anyone willing to walk through a metal detector can have, I am pro America and pro democracy like no other time of the year.

On Wednesday, I rested and recovered from the day before. In the afternoon I had dialysis and John Burke met us at the center. After my session, we went to dinner with another old friend, John Collin. It was a great dinner and great to catch up with old friends. John B’s research in England is going well and John C’s work on The Real Housewives of DC is coming along, too. I think my dad and I are going to tivo the show to see a little of John C’s work. Who knows, maybe my father and I have been missing out on all these reality shows for the last decade and will find that, deep down, we really enjoy them.

On Thursday, we headed down to Richmond...I will continue later in the week with Part 2.

Thanks for everyone who called in on Advocacy day as part of the national call in. Every call helps. Thanks to everyone who made the trip and lobbied in person in DC. Every person helps. I am so sorry for everyone who has lost someone to pancreatic cancer. I hope our efforts give you some comfort, however minuscule, that maybe we can change things for the better some day.

Take Care and Live Strong,
Tyler

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Advacacy Day

Just a reminder, if you have some time today, it would be awesome if you could call you representative and senators to push for pancreatic cancer research funding. All the info is on Pancan.org and click on the National Call in Day link. Tell them that you support senate bill 3320 and house resolution 745. It's a great way to help the cause without even leaving your house or giving any money. Otherwise I hope everyone is doing well.

Take care and live strong.
Tyler